Amateur Hour

by The Stoned Beatle

/
  • Streaming + Download

     

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
05:38
7.
04:17
8.
9.
10.
11.
02:58
12.
13.
04:31
14.
15.
16.
17.
18.

about

These are a bunch of songs I wrote in high school that I recorded after graduation. Basically I was trying to clear out some of my old songs to see if there was anything interesting there. Results varied. The songs are in no particular order, I think it might be oldest to newest from freshman to senior year... but how would you know? This album is arranged to give a chronological, cinematic view of the progression through high school. It was meticulously planned. This is a true story. The events depicted took place in Washington in 2008-2012. At the request of the survivors, the names have been changed. Out of respect for the dead, the rest has been told exactly as it occurred.

credits

released September 19, 2012

The Stoned Beatle
Jerered - nose flute on "You Are"

tags

license

about

The Stoned Beatle Vancouver, Washington

It's free. Like chlamydia.

contact / help

Contact The Stoned Beatle

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: Into the Night
There is a voice coming up from the sky
Sounding from shadows, but I don't need to know why
There is a light shining, it's all I need
You don't even know what it does to me

And no, I don't know what I'm doing
And I can't say where I'm going
But there's something in your smile
That makes me come to life

And you, you are the air I breathe
And you, always just out of reach
I wanna be by your side
As we sail into the night

I was a wild child in the frenzied sun
My feet light, but my heart weighed a ton
Drinking and laughing neath the marquee moon
Skipping through time/life like a maroon

And I wanna know where you're going
And I wanna know what you're doing
Something in the way you make me feel
Eyes are open, lips are sealed

And you, you are the air I breathe
And you, always just out of reach
I wanna be by your side
As we sail into the night

A stranger's hand, Achilles' heel
Never wanted more than I could steal
Caught with my hand in the cookie jar
I can't stand it, now I've got to know

Come with me now, my true love
You're a disease, and you're in my blood
You're young, babe, but it's time you learned
The sky is falling, and everything burns
Track Name: Behind a Smile
All these colors floating around my head
I stabbed the complacent, and I watched as they bled
I'm just lost in a haze
I'm just going through a phase

Your idiom was foolproof, but your diction lacked subtlety
I'm vanishing into eternity
Your face is beautiful, but you hide it behind a smile
The sun will rise in a little while
Place noun in here
You've got nothing to fear

Stuck in muddy waters
And the dirt's not coming off
I've never seen an angel fly so low
The fall of Saigon and a nagging cough

Buttercup

I'm just honest, I really don't care
Patronizing euphemisms we used to share
Mistakes happen so easily
Visions appear dreamily

Louder, faster
An ominous drumbeat
Pessimism only goes so far
Fireworks can also signal defeat

(It bends, and then it breaks
What you give is what you take)

Buttercup
Track Name: Like a Freshman
Hung up, allergic to love
I just lie in bed while my friends call me up
Because I know what they'd say
That it's better this way
Well, I don't even see the point of today

It was a copout
When everything was all set in ink
Now I'm dropped out
Into the river with lead boots on my feet
Air in my lungs but determined to sink
Into the deep on a dare and a dream

Strung up, harmless and wasted
Useless and pasted into your heart
Those that've never been hit
Will say forgive and forget
But I'm tired of playing the bit

Of the fool
Spurned, misguided, and misled
It's so cruel
You know the things that you said
Said, "Baby, it's all in your head"
Now I'm thinking I'd be better off dead

Sometimes it's all too much
And it seems nothing can pull me through
Adrift in pain and without a crutch
And to sulk seems the only right thing to do
(What I'd do for you)

I know the love is gone
That I should move on and get on with my life
But what's to be done?
Apathy has won
It cancels me out before I've begun

It was a copout
When everything was all set in ink
Now I'm dropped out
Into the river with lead boots on my feet
Air in lungs but determined to sink
Into the deep on a dare and a dream
Track Name: I Won't Let You Down
Every day I'm without you
I think of what we had
I never thought that this love
Could make me feel so bad

And I wonder what you're doing tonight
If you're lonely, if everything's alright

Must be something between us
I must've done something wrong
But what is there to be done
To get us back where we belong?

And I know how much you've done for me
I wish you'd come back and see

I won't let you down

You know I love you so much
How can I make things right?
Oh, I yearn for your touch
And to see you tonight

Because you know how I feel about you
And I know you feel that way too

I won't let you down
Track Name: Dark Water
Red, red dark water
Blue, blue eyes staring
Flow, river flow away from me
Grow, and spread into nothing

Love, sweet love, so dreadful
Heart, black heart, is breaking
Hands can't keep from shaking
Oh the guilt, oh the guilt is too much

Dear sweet one, you'd probably forgive me
Though I wish you wouldn't, still
I'm not worth the sweat from your ankles
Much less the tears frozen on your cheeks

Pain, pain deep as the river
The river where I could drown it forever
Sorrow, sorrow for such beauty
Such a kind heart, oh, what a waste

Heart could break from breathing
Lungs could burst from speaking
Body could collapse from crying
Brain could seize from thinking

Lovely tragic angel, you'd probably forgive me
Though I know God never will
Alone, together, we shall be again
Smiling, crying in the end
Track Name: Interpolio
The road less travelled
The way you were before
The pain that you faked
The writing on the door
Is there anything left for us?
Is there anything left?

Look around you
Let my love surround you
Nothing left to say
Nothing left for me to do

Fear of your future
Regret for the past
A day you knew would come
A feeling that won't last
I miss you so much now, dear
Oh, I miss you now

Can't seem to find the words
An answer is in your eyes
The days you spent alone
Waiting for me to realize

I'm just not sure anymore
Who you want me to be
The eyes peering from the window
Everything says that I should just go
Interpolio

The sun is going down on us, love
Clouds are gathering too
A storm is on the horizon
It's now or never to get through
Track Name: On the Bright Side
I went down to the shore
Found exactly what I was looking for
They yelled, "Hit the ground"
But I looked up to the sky

Always looking on the bright side

I went to the top floor
Found exactly what I was looking for
The earth shook, pulled us down
I enjoyed the ride

Always looking on the bright side

I went through the biggest door
Found exactly what I was looking for
A room full of darkness
I looked but found no sky

Always looking on the bright side
Track Name: Hard to Forget/SLings aND aRRowS
It's getting late now, baby
And I don't think you should stay
I'm not saying we shouldn't meet again
But it's be better that way

No more thoughts by the moonlight
No more lying in the sun
The moon's covered by clouds now, honey
And the sun's work is done

We're living life in twilight now
And not by idealist books
I'm trying hard to forget all about you
But it's hard to forget your looks

So I hang my head down low
And walk a little faster home
My greatest pleasure is my greatest pain
I only want to be alone

The nights, they crawl of whispers now
Of when I was begging on my knees
I lived my life with a knife in my side
Now it's your turn to bleed

The nights we spent have long passed by
I'm trying to make sense of it all
Your intrusion, while it first seemed sweet
Turned to bitterest gall

We're living life in twilight now
And not by idealist books
I'm trying to forget all about you
But it's hard to forget your looks

So I hang my head down low
And walk a little faster home
My greatest pleasure is my greatest pain
I only want to be alone

We're living life in twilight now
And not by idealist books
I'm trying to forget all about you
But it's hard to forget your looks
Track Name: Blue Sky Black
I'll squeeze blood out of a turnip
I'll squeeze blood out of a rock
I'll give everything
Out of anything I've got

You shatter my nights to nothing
You turn the blue sky black
I'll gladly give you all my love
If you give just a little bit back

You're too beautiful
You're not even here
You are all that I love
You are everything I fear
Track Name: Refugee
You be my saving grace, I'll be your refugee
You keep me safe, and I'll keep you free
You'll be the one to always know what's right
I'll be the one you don't have to fight

And when I feel I've had enough
You keep me from giving up
Now help me one more time through this mess

I need somebody I can celebrate
I need somebody who won't make me wait
She'll never let me down
She'll make me feel great when she's around
And I won't need nobody but her
Track Name: Baby, I Love You, But...
Baby, I love you, but I'm falling apart
I keep shooting myself in the foot
I keep tying a noose around my knock
With the way that I act
And I didn't mean for it to come out like that
Baby, I love you, but you're bringing me down
And baby, you don't know where I'm at

I wish you could dream
Or at least for once seem
To possibly believe
That you are able to see

The new blossomed tree flowers are twisting in the wind
And I can't help the hail from falling on them
The city is flooded, and the rain blows through in waves
When the sun finally appears, we'll wish it never came
Baby, I'm drowning, but it's all okay

Baby, I love you, but I think we should die
I see no point in living this life
Babe, I hear what you say
But sometimes you get in my way
What started as a fall turned into a dive

I could be a millionaire
I could be with you anywhere
I could hold you and tell you how much that I need you
And how living without you is like life without air
Baby, I love you, but I just don't care

Baby, we've got everything to fear
Baby, believe me, we have so much to fear
I'm nothing without you, my heart races when you're near
I need you, darling, but I wish you weren't here

I look back at everyone I turned on
Left and turned away from
Every decision I made was wrong
Baby, I love you, but I wish you were gone

I never meant for you any of this
I laid the bait, but you took the risk
My mindless machine that beats in the dark
Like my well-worn guitar pick was once shaped like a heart
Baby, I love you, but I'm falling apart
Track Name: You Are
You are my pleasure, you are my pain
You are my secret, you are my shame
You are my hope rising from the waters
You are the wind blowing cold against my face

The echoes from the trees, the voice in my dreams
Your face haunts me everywhere it seems
In the flowers you give me rebirth
After we leave our bodies and float around the earth

We could get up, but why don't we just lie
I'll give you the moon, you'll give me the sky
The sun is ours and may it forever stay
Under our spell until the end of days
Track Name: Sunny Day Women #47
She is a perfect fit
She is hip with it

I saw her down in the subway looking sad
I talked to her down by the railway, made her glad
Oh, I couldn't let her go
Oh, I had to let her know

That I want to be with her if she wants to be with me
She said, "I want to be with you because you want to be with me"

And who knows where our love is bound
My heart slows whenever she's around

She is a perfect fit
She is hip with it

I held her in my arms and then we kissed
I looked into her eyes and told her this
Oh, though I know nothing lasts forever
Oh, it sure feels that way when we're together

And I'll always be with you if you want to be with me
She said, "I'll forever be with you if you'll be with me"

And I know what a special love I've found
And so I will never let her down
Track Name: Calvary Charge
Left right stumbling aristocrats sliding down a steak knife
Cut the fat save the children put it in the freezer
Keep the good bits more matter less art
A bloodstain of a smile

Kitty firestorm in a whitewash phone call
Tears on the other end
A balloon expanding rapidly under pressure
Texas democracy in the thick of diamond death row

Trap doors under my feet
Two days later
The sun covers us like ashes

We all melt into sand flow down the river
Nice glowing lights burns like a witch remove the stinger
Call it childproof call it my safecracker
Our enemy's head as a centerpiece
Children crying in the parking lot
Track Name: O Cristo Redentor (How Do You Know)
Talking shit in the parking lot
I am lost, I am lost
Trying to find my own way out
I am caught, I am caught

If you don't need me here, then I'll leave
But just know how much you mean

To me it seems we've wasted all those years
For something
In the morning I'm crying toothpaste tears
For nothing

If you want to quit now, then we will
But just know that I still

Love you say will save us all
But how do you know
How do you know

At night the sky turns a darker shade of black
And so I
Think of things I should've taken back
Why can't I

Get things straight through my head
All the things I've done have led

To this last night underneath the stars
Everything we do is for ourselves
I'm not coming back

Love you say will save us all
But how do you know
How do you know
Track Name: All the Pretty Women
All the pretty women live in a hole in tall New York
All the pretty women live under the sun in devout Dixie
Pretty women with their big, bright eyes
Pretty women and their handsome guys
All the pretty women are so far away from me

All the pretty women and their made up problems don't mean a thing to me
All the pretty women with their sad, sad doldrums just won't be happy
Always some terrible fight
Melancholy ladies and their righteous might
All the pretty women are so far away from me

Moving in big, bright cars under glowing clouds
With wet kisses and windswept hair and voices so loud
Singing such sweet songs
They'll forget before too long
All the pretty women are so far away from me
Track Name: Japanese Song
A silver sunset for my true love
I lie in the grass where we used to dance
Under the great trees where no sun will shine
Your scent and your voice still float through the air

You will find me here

There are no stars, only bones in the earth
Every love will be eaten by the worms
A foggy meadow where you used to laugh
On my flesh the sun will shine no more

I will find you here

With you they took my last breath
Now I only breath in your ghost
Fills me with cold like I never knew
Fills me with nothing, and I will breathe no more

You will find me here